PM log with Jonathan ((Only visible OOCly))

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<Jonathan> We're still going to go camping, right? I did ask you to go camping, didn't I?

<Chelsea> You talked about it! Did you have a specific date in mind?

<Jonathan> No. When it's warm. Spring Break?

<Chelsea> That would be fun. :D So yeah. :D

<Jonathan> Cool!

<Jonathan> I'll ask Henry tomorrow.

<Chelsea> Great, and I'll ask Gran. :)

<Jonathan> Good!

<Jonathan> I'm sorry that I don't like cheerleading.

<Chelsea> It's okay. I know a lot of places, cheerleaders can be some real snotty people. The girls here have always been really nice to me, though, and at the last school, most of the girls were trained ballerinas, too.

<Jonathan> They were horrible, at my first high school.

<Chelsea> :( I'm sorry.

<Jonathan> They made everyone go to pep rallies, and it was so fucking stupid.

<Chelsea> My old high school was the School of the Creative and Performing Arts in Cinci... so it wasn't your usual school and we only had a few sports teams, but the girls were totally amazing.

<Jonathan> My last school was also a public school.

<Jonathan> As was my middle school.

<Jonathan> And my elementary school.

<Chelsea> Oh, SCPA is a public school. You have to audition to get in, but it's open to anyone who lives in the municipal Cinci area and qualifies.

<Jonathan> That's cool.

<Chelsea> It was. The dress code was pretty strict, and the rules were pretty strict about a lot of things, but it was a great place to learn.

<Jonathan> That sounds like it would have been a better place to go.

<Chelsea> Yeah, it was pretty cool. I liked it.

<Jonathan> I don't think you should do this. They're obsessed. They'll make you mean.

<Chelsea> They're not mean people. And part of my agreement with my parents, in coming here, was I had to get back into doing social activities and things. It's one of the better choices because I can dance.

<Jonathan> You'll be busy all of the time.

<Chelsea> Practices and games. I'll still hang out with you. And you can always come watch the practices and study there and then we can walk home, if you want. It'd be fun to have you there.

<Jonathan> I don't want to be around their cult.

<Jonathan> It's loud, and their pushy, and it's making me annoyed at Izzy.

<Jonathan> THEY'RE

<Jonathan> See?

<Jonathan> See what they're talking about now?

<Jonathan> They're sick!

<Jonathan> You have to stay out, please.

<Chelsea> They're just being silly. I'll bet they don't even do anything like that for real.

<Jonathan> They're sick.

<Jonathan> They are also pushy.

<Chelsea> They're all talk. That's all.

<Jonathan> They don't even want to make jokes about it. They just want to talk about cheerleading and how perverted they are.

<Chelsea> It's posturing. Kids start doing that in junior high. Most of them haven't done even a fraction of the things they say they're doing.

<Jonathan> I don't want you to be a cheerleader.

<Chelsea> I'd really like to do it. It's about the only sport I'm any good at, and I need to do something, because I promised my parents.

<Jonathan> Don't they practice every day?

<Chelsea> I'm not sure what the schedule is. Probably a lot of days, but that's standard with any activity.

<Jonathan> Yeah.

<Jonathan> If you do it, I will not go to any practices and any games.

<Jonathan> I will wait for you in the library.

<Chelsea> Okay. I can come to the library afterwards.

<Jonathan> I disagree with you.

<Jonathan> However, you are my friend, so it's okay.

<Chelsea> Yeah. Friends can disagree and still be friends.

<Jonathan> So, it's not that bad.

<Chelsea> It's not. :) And you'll always be welcome to attend if you ever get curious.

<Jonathan> Are you mad?

<Chelsea> No, I'm not. Are you?

<Jonathan> I'm not mad, either, then.

<Chelsea> :)

<Jonathan> Do you promise you won't start dating some guy and dance in front of him while he plays video games?

<Chelsea> I promise. That sounds completely unappealing. XD

<Jonathan> Okay. Good.

<Jonathan> They all start doing that.

<Chelsea> I don't think they really do. I think they just joke about stuff like that.

<Jonathan> They start doing things like that.

<Chelsea> How do you know?

<Jonathan> They never shut up about it.

<Chelsea> Most people are all talk.

<Jonathan> Also, it's common knowledge that Izzy got drunk and pregnant.

<Chelsea> Well, yeah, she posted about it and why people shouldn't do that.

<Jonathan> Yes.

<Jonathan> She shouldn't have gone out with that guy.

<Chelsea> Yeah, she shouldn't have.

<Jonathan> He was one of the people who beat up people like me.

<Chelsea> He beat you up?

<Jonathan> Not me.

<Jonathan> He would have, though, if he'd still been in high school. He told me.

<Chelsea> So he's how much older?

<Jonathan> He graduated last year, I think.

<Jonathan> That's what popular people do.

<Jonathan> Sports people.

<Jonathan> It's a stupid cliche but it's true in many cases.

<Jonathan> That is who cheerleaders end up dating.

<Chelsea> That's not true of all of them.

<Jonathan> I suppose.

<Jonathan> You can do whatever you want, though. I'm sorry.

<Chelsea> It's okay. I guess you've had a lot of bad experiences with people in the sports teams. I promise, I'm not going to stop being your friend.

<Jonathan> If you go out with someone like that, I'll still be your friend.

<Chelsea> I won't go out with someone who'd beat you up, I can tell you that. I wouldn't let anybody treat a friend of mine that way.

<Jonathan> That's good, then.

<Jonathan> I think that I've learned to deal with that better.

<Chelsea> With what? Being mistreated?

<Jonathan> No.

<Chelsea> Oh, disagreements?

<Jonathan> I was pretty upset when Izzy started dating John, but then I talked to him, and I think that I learned to do better about that.

<Chelsea> Did talking to him help?

<Jonathan> Yes.

<Jonathan> I don't like him, though.

<Chelsea> That's good. So you guys got along then?

<Jonathan> Not really. We didn't argue, though.

<Chelsea> That's something, at least. :)

<Jonathan> Heh. Yes.

<Chelsea> I'll be right back.

<Jonathan> Okay.

<Jonathan> What are you doing?

<Jonathan> What's your middle name, Chelsea?

<Chelsea> Sorry, back. Gran needed some help.

<Jonathan> That's okay. I waited. I just wanted to ask you, before I forgot.

<Chelsea> Imogene. Which is really weird but my great-grandmother was named that.

<Jonathan> That's a really cool name.

<Chelsea> Thank you. :)

<Chelsea> Do you have a middle name?

<Jonathan> Patrick.

<Chelsea> That's a good one. I have an uncle Patrick. :D

<Jonathan> There are probably ten other people in the country with the exact same name.

<Chelsea> Probably. There are a whole lot of people in the country.

<Jonathan> Yeah. As I mentioned in the chat, I -did- have the same name as an old teacher.

<Chelsea> Wow!

<Jonathan> It was really stupid.

<Chelsea> I'll bet it got a little confusing at times.

<Jonathan> Especially considering that he was sleeping with a student.

<Chelsea> Yikes.

<Jonathan> Oh, and it was Donna, which is a large part of why I hate her.

<Chelsea> You hate Donna?

<Jonathan> Yes.

<Jonathan> She is a horrible person.

<Chelsea> Why? She's always been so nice.

<Jonathan> She only acts nice.

<Chelsea> What does she do that's horrible?

<Jonathan> She is an employee of the school, and literally called me 'crazy', in front of everyone in the chat.

<Jonathan> That is a secret, though. If you tell anyone, Izzy will tell people things about me.

<Chelsea> How is it secret if she said it in front of everybody?

<Jonathan> I threatened to report the incident.

<Jonathan> Technically, she shouldn't even be in the chat, much less say things like that to me.

<Chelsea> Oh.

<Jonathan> She's also been pregnant twice, and is a horrible slut.

<Jonathan> She should not work here.

<Chelsea> Pregnant twice? I know she's pregnant now, but I didn't realize she had a kid already. I thought that was Izzy who had a baby already.

<Jonathan> She didn't -have- the kid.

<Chelsea> What happened?

<Jonathan> I don't know.

<Jonathan> Maybe someone punched her in the stomach.

<Chelsea> Oh my god.

<Jonathan> I wonder if the old English teacher was related to my dad.

<Chelsea> Is that who had the same name as you?

<Jonathan> Yes.

<Jonathan> I would say not. Crane is a very common last name.

<Chelsea> Maybe distantly related?

<Jonathan> Possibly.

<Jonathan> Anyway, there were rumors all over the place about her and the baby and the old English teacher, and then all of a sudden she wasn't pregnant any more.

<Chelsea> Yeah.

<Jonathan> You probably shouldn't talk to her about this, either. I really can't get reported for the water bottle incident.

<Chelsea> I won't. But, um... it's really not my place to say, but she really loved him, and losing the baby crushed her.

<Jonathan> Are you talking to her right now?

<Chelsea> No. She lost the baby at the school. In one of the hallways. I um... experienced it a few weeks ago.

<Jonathan> You said that you didn't realize she'd already had a kid, so you lied, then.

<Chelsea> I didn't know who it was until you put the pieces together.

<Jonathan> You're talking to her.

<Chelsea> No, I'm not.

<Jonathan> Izzy did that, I'm certain.

<Chelsea> Look, I didn't know it was her. I just know that someone had a miscarriage in one of the hallways at school, and it tore her all up and she was miserable. But I was feeling what she felt and she wasn't thinking about herself. She was grieving over the baby.

<Jonathan> So you think I'm the bad person now, and she's nice.

<Jonathan> Okay.

<Chelsea> No. I just think there's stuff about her that you're assuming.

<Jonathan> Are you angry at me?

<Chelsea> No.

<Jonathan> I thought that you were talking to her, and I was angry.

<Jonathan> I'm sorry.

<Chelsea> I wasn't talking to her. I've only ever talked to her in class, I think. It's okay.

<Jonathan> I'm sorry that she lost the baby.

<Chelsea> She really wanted the baby. I think maybe that's why she's pregnant now. I don't think it's about the sex for her as much as wanting to be a mother.

<Jonathan> She is too young to be a mother.

<Chelsea> Maybe, but she's going to be one. I think she'll love the baby a lot and try very hard to make sure it gets everything she can possibly give it.

<Jonathan> Maybe.

<Jonathan> You're really good at understanding why people do things.

<Jonathan> Some people might have the same talent as you, and just end up hating people all together.

<Jonathan> I don't know if you would understand everything about me.

<Chelsea> I guess. There are people who I avoid, but mostly it's like, what I see about them? It's the same things I feel. They get scared and angry and lonely the same ways I do. Sometimes I've seen things from people where they... just wanted to hurt other people for their own entertainment.

<Chelsea> There were some girls like that in the hospital. People like that scare me more than anything because nobody else is real to them.

<Jonathan> What if I want to hurt people, sometimes?

<Chelsea> Everybody wants to sometimes.

<Jonathan> I'm not like everybody.

<Jonathan> I told you that I want people to be afraid.

<Chelsea> Those girls thought that nothing else in the world was real, just them, and the rest of us were things that existed just for them, and if we got in their way, for any reason, it was totally okay to hurt us however they wanted, because we weren't real anyway.

<Jonathan> They were crazy.

<Chelsea> They were awful.

<Jonathan> I'm crazy.

<Jonathan> I would probably hurt people if I thought that I could get away with it.

<Chelsea> You're not like that. You want other people to be afraid so you don't have to be. People are still real to you, even when you don't like them.

<Jonathan> I hate people.

<Chelsea> You wouldn't worry about what people thought if you believed they weren't real.

<Jonathan> I made someone lose an eye, once.

<Chelsea> How?

<Jonathan> Birds took it.

<Chelsea> How was that your doing?

<Jonathan> I made them do it.

<Jonathan> I put chemicals that made them angry on my lunch money, which he stole every morning.

<Chelsea> Like pheromones or something?

<Jonathan> Yes, exactly.

<Chelsea> I didn't know that was possible.

<Jonathan> People need to think it isn't possible, or I will be in a great deal of trouble.

<Chelsea> I won't say anything.

<Jonathan> Okay.

<Jonathan> I'm a very bad person.

<Chelsea> You've always been very kind to me.

<Jonathan> You're a very good person, and should have better friends. The cheerleading people will be good friends to you.

<Chelsea> I'll still be your friend.

<Jonathan> You make me want to be kind to you.

<Chelsea> You were kind to me from the start. :)

<Jonathan> You are very nice.

<Chelsea> Thank you. You are too.

<Jonathan> I'm not.

<Chelsea> You are when you let yourself be. You always are to me.

<Jonathan> I think that what you can do is beautiful.

<Jonathan> I wish that I could understand people that way.

<Chelsea> Sometimes it is. A lot of the time, it's uncomfortable. It can be overwhelming. I've gone catatonic a few times after a really intense experience.

<Jonathan> What's it like to be catatonic?

<Chelsea> Empty. I don't really remember. It's just this empty gray place and there's no time there, and there's nothing there. Not even thoughts, or anything, and when you come out of there, days or weeks have passed.

<Jonathan> I wonder if it's like being dead.

<Chelsea> I guess it might be.

<Jonathan> It sounds like it.

<Jonathan> At least, it sounds like what I imagine.

<Chelsea> Except you don't get to come back out of being dead, usually.

<Jonathan> No, one usually does not.

<Chelsea> I'd rather have had that time in the world.

<Jonathan> I will try very hard not to give you anything that will make that happen, again.

<Chelsea> Thank you. :)

<Jonathan> I'm sorry that I touched your hand.

<Chelsea> No, that's fine. :) You can do that.

<Chelsea> I only pick up stuff from inanimate objects, not people.

<Jonathan> I still shouldn't have done it.

<Chelsea> I didn't mind. :)

<Jonathan> I thought the wrong thing.

<Chelsea> What did you think?

<Jonathan> Nevermind.

<Chelsea> Okay.

<Jonathan> Sorry.

<Chelsea> It's all right.

<Jonathan> I figured out how someone should give you a present, though.

<Chelsea> How?

<Jonathan> I don't know if it would work or not, but if you held a present that someone wrapped for you, you'd probably be able to see what it is, right?

<Chelsea> Yeah, if they'd thought about what they were wrapping, I'd probably pick it up.

<Jonathan> I think most people do, especially if they care about the gift and the person.

<Jonathan> So, they should put it in a box, then someone else wraps it.

<Chelsea> Yeah. :) It made Christmas pretty wacky. And that'd probably work.

<Jonathan> Can you feel things through gloves?

<Chelsea> Me? No. I sometimes wear gloves and stuff for that reason but I'm trying to blend and learn how to deal with the onslaught so I've been trying not to do that much.

<Jonathan> It's winter, though. You can get away with it.

<Jonathan> It makes sense, though.

<Jonathan> Tell me something about you that doesn't have to do with your power.

<Chelsea> It does. Sometimes, if things are really strong, they still get through. Okay. Something about me that doesn't have to do with that... :)

<Chelsea> Have I ever told you that I love photography? I was going to be a nature photographer. I can show you my portfolio sometime. I wasn't really as good as I wanted to be yet.

<Jonathan> I didn't know that. I really want to see your photographs, now.

<Jonathan> You say that as if you've stopped, though.

<Chelsea> But I was getting there, and I've been working on it again. It's nice. I took some pictures of the icicles outside of my window yesterday and they came out really well.

<Jonathan> That's really neat! I want to see.

<Chelsea> I haven't stopped, but it all got derailed for a while. I'm hoping that if I get everything under control, I can actually be one.

<Jonathan> Your pictures could be in magazines and everything. I like that.

<Jonathan> Where are you going to go to college?

<Chelsea> I'd like that, too. I don't know that yet. Art school, hopefully.

<Jonathan> Where, though?

<Jonathan> Out of Pennsylvania?

<Chelsea> Probably. I'd like to try to get into one of the really good schools. School of the Art Institute of Chicago -- but I'm probably blue-skying there. Cleveland Institute of Art, maybe. That's a really good one. Boston has a fantastic school, too.

<Jonathan> That's cool. You should definitely try to get into the best school that you can.

<Jonathan> I am trying to get into Princeton.

<Chelsea> I want to, yeah. Oh, that's a really good school. ::)

<Jonathan> That will also be near my foster family, in two years.

<Chelsea> Oh, they're going to be moving there?

<Jonathan> Yes.

<Chelsea> It'll be nice that you'll be able to stay near them, then. :) They're really nice.

<Jonathan> They are.

<Jonathan> Henry knows what I've done.

<Jonathan> Sometimes, I think I can tell him almost everything.

<Chelsea> That's wonderful. That's what a father or a foster father should be like.

<Chelsea> And I need to go sleep. Sorry to disappear on you but I'm going to have keyboard-face in a few minutes if I don't. :)

<Jonathan> I don't want you to go.

<Chelsea> I'll try to remember to turn my computer on tomorrow. :)

<Jonathan> All right.

<Jonathan> Good night.

<Chelsea> Good night. Sweet dreams. :)

((Dele, let me know if any of the stuff Chelsea said about Donna needs to be altered/retconned, and I will. :) ))